It's Official

It's official! Next week is my last week of work before I go supplemental. This is something that Robb and I have thought long and hard about for awhile now and it has finally become a possibility. I am very excited to be a stay at home mommy but I will also admit I am terrified for many reasons. Since we have been married, Robb and I have always worked full time and shared almost all of the household chores equally. (Except for laundry which has been a reoccurring disaster when he helps and I have only mowed the lawn maybe once the entire time we have lived at our house.)I think it will be very different adjusting to our new roles around the house.
I am also very nervous about the most important job of my life, being a good mom. Right now when I work full time, I get adult interaction and a break from the chaos at home at least 2-3 days a week. Now I will be home everyday and night and weekend with them and frankly I am a little worried that no matter how much I love them they might drive me crazy! Kendra our nanny of 3+ years has always been so good to them and the kids all look forward to the days when she comes. I think it helps break up the monotony of me and Robb always telling them what to do. She has more patience because she gets to leave at the end of the day. Even though I am very nervous for this transition in our life I am very excited. I can't wait to see Robb and the kids more instead of having to pass off the kids quick before I had to go to work. It will also be very nice to have a normal person schedule and not have to sleep during the day most days. I think this was the right decision for our family and our kids but only time will tell.
I will also miss my job a lot! I have made a lot of friends and learned a lot in the last 3 1/2 years of working here. I will miss the conversations that I have with the girls at work but I fully intend to keep in touch with the friends I have made there.
As I said, I will also miss the work. This has been one of the most challenging jobs I have ever had. I have gotten to take care of some of the tiniest and sickest babies and then months later see them go home to their families. This job came with a lot of stress but also a lot of joy. So St E's girls call me and keep in touch. I will still be picking up hours but will not get to see you nearly as much as I used to. Thanks for all the fond middle of the night memories! :)
So in saying all this I get a little sad. This is a big change in our lives and I hope I am up for the challenge of being a great stay at home mom. I hope that I am fun, patient, and the kind of mom that I always hoped I would be.